I'm in a pissy mood!

There are so many things lately that are just totally annoying me. On the SAHP board, there was a post about a five month being left in a van all day and she of course died. The mom "forgot". It's just another example that no one is responsible for anything anymore. Someone said it was a mistake. Forgetting your lunch is a mistake, not leaving your five month old in the car for ten hours in the middle of summer.

Another thing that is really starting to get on my nerves. I bet you didn't know I had four boys did you? I swear! The neighbor boy has been at our house all day long every day this week. Hello??? I have three children, do his parents ever once think, "Gee, she might be getting a little tired of having to watch my child?" I'm thisclose to going and charging them for childcare! He just came in and scared me...oh, he is such a good kid, why do I want to murder him?!?!

What else is irritating me? Money, I need another kid and bad! I've had one inquiry and nothing back. Okay, I'm off of here, I need to go make some coffee or something!

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I need to try to find some rechargeable batteries for my digital camera after I finish this, so maybe writing this here will help me remember.

The lady I babysit for just dropped off Amara and she looked like she had cried all morning. She said that her and Amara's dad may not be staying together. That is so sad. She is probably in her mid 20s and she is raising her brother and sister along with Amara. Her mom has been gone for four years now and I don't know about the dad. Just so sad and I'm sure she's so tired and stressed. I told her that if she needed me to watch Amara longer just let me know. I am so lucky with Chad. I am so secure in his love that stuff like this happening to us is as foreign as I don't even know what.

Neva is applying for a job here in about an hour, Lord I hope she gets it. I have never heard her sound as low as she has lately. I've been praying about it all week. I hope it's exactly what she needs and wants.

My sciatica thing hurts so stinking bad! I did something to it yesterday and I was in tears. I need to go see a chiropractor but that ain't gonna happen anytime soon.

Okay, I need to go see if I can find some batteries and balance the checkbook so Chad and I can go out tomorrow night!

I haven't written in a while and I need to so here I am! I found a little girl to babysit and make some extra money. Her name is Amara and she is really sweet. I don't mind watching her at all except for those times when I just don't want the added responsibility but 95% of the time, she's just fine.

Today is Morgan's birthday. I can't believe my baby is 5! Where did those years go? He keeps saying this morning that he is 5 now and can do whatever he wants or now that he's five, he doesn't eat breakfast anymore! We are gonna give him some little presents tonight but his big gift was Saturday. Mom, Dad and Bri came over and we went and got him a swing set. Dad and Chad put it together and it looks great in the backyard. Morgan kept thanking Mom for it. It makes me happy that he is so appreciative.

I need to figure out some way to find one more kid to babysit. Amara is just part time right now and I need at least one full time kid if we aren't gonna struggle for money. And I'm just really tired of struggling. I don't mind scrimping and pinching but I hate the panic attacks at midnight when I can't sleep. I also seriously need to get back into the mind set that $20 here and there REALLY adds up! We've basically been able to spend whatever we want and we just can't do that anymore. Plus all the dr bills from Matthew's finger. Which looks so wonderful, I might add. I'm so totally impressed, thrilled, excited, etc that his finger is going to look totally normal. We are truly blessed. He is standing beside me right now looking through the sheer curtains and slapping my arm and then just giggling like a maniac. He got into some kind of bug the other day and got eaten up. His leg looks like a red dot to dot.